2008 n 2009

Lazy to type chinese la.Now is 1am.no friends online.last year,still got "somebody"countdown wif me in msn...this year,quite lonely...haha.mayb tey have their own plan.hahaha.the line so slow,lose my mood to surfing internet.so i choose to write something here.
The year of 2008,my memory full of the time in school n fight for stpm,quite a tough year and the year that i never forget.Stpm for me is tough...this year passed so fast.2008,i oso spend this year wif my lovely u6s1 classmates n teacher...honestly,i miss them so much.
The year of 2009,i think this year quite important for me.becoz my stpm result will determine my future.n the most important is,i dun have confidence to get flying colours.this year i oso will go for a job be4 the stpm result out.For sure,i will teach primary school chinese in a tuition centre.im quite scared,coz i never teach in a tuition centre,kinda a new experience for me.n i think dat i m not well in teaching...anyway,i dun have other choices.Promoter or cashier,my parents not allowed.n oso caused by the transport problem.Sigh,i seldom go out.even find a job,jz around my housing area.wanna go out wif frens oso difficult.dat is my life anyway.like a bird in a cage...i hope if i cnt get unimas medic course(no hope at all),i hope my university will be in a another state.mayb it is so much tough living without parents arrange everything for u.but...i hope i can gain more experiences.meet more people.seems tat my communication skills reli bad.anyway,i have try my best in stpm,others jz depends on luck....
thats' all,ntg to say.wish everyone of u,happy new year.
Sad memory i will jz throw them into the rubbish bin.Sorry to the ppl dat i ever hurt.
2009 is coming.all the best.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!!!!!!!!

MAKE A WISH : 事事顺利
beautiful STPM result
me and people around me happy always

10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS.I POST THIS ON 01.01.09 12AM

跨年电视节目还有歌星

「2009跨年演唱會」台北跨年活動晚會
活動名稱： 2009台北最High新年城時　　
时間： 2008年12月31日PM7：00開始
地　　點： 台北市府前廣場
主 持 人： 胡瓜、藍心湄 演出陣容： 蘇打綠、張惠妹、五月天、S.H.E、熱狗、梁靜茹、蕭敬騰、陳綺貞、丁噹、盧廣仲、參劈、強辯、大嘴巴、頑童

「2009跨年演唱會」台中跨年活動晚會

活動名稱： 就是愛台中，就是要跨年
時　　間： 2008年12月31日
地　　點： 國立台灣體育大學體育場
主 持 人： 侯昌明、高伊玲 / 鴨子、黃鴻升/ 小鬼、張善為
演出陣容： 王力宏、羅志祥、楊丞琳、蕭敬騰、卓文萱、黑Girl、唐禹哲、神木與瞳、梁文音、李千娜、何維建、大嘴巴、江語晨、鄭元暢、 林依晨、黃文星、倪子岡

「2009跨年演唱會」台南市跨年活動晚會
活動名稱： 健康府城，安全城市
時　　間： 12/31(三)19:00 ~1/1(四)01:00
地　　點： 台南市政府西側廣場 主 持 人： 小鍾、宋新妮
演出陣容： SHE、潘裕文、周定緯、許仁杰、黃靖倫、安柏政、鴨子、葉乃文（牛奶）、TANK、A-LIN、黃妃、呂莘等...

明年就快到了，每一年的跨年一样，没什么节目，就在家里看电视，看跨年演唱会，等我的偶像出现，今年也不例外，看这时间表，发现到台中是最有看头了，因为有lee hom,小猪罗志祥，杨丞琳等等。。。可是我会守着台北的S.H.E.....通常不一样台的有点辛苦，要按来按去，lee hom我期待他唱新歌，尤其是心跳，超好听。。可是问题是不知台中的电视有播吗，至于我新偶像-颜菀倩，她的是在金河广场如果没有错的话，所以我没得看。。周笔畅在休息当中，没有参加跨年。

今天-28.12.08

my pc today lag lag de,dun wan type chinese liao la...
Today i go listen law,be4 i go,my fren told me it will be very boring,ask me nid have preparation mentally..swt###..but still ok ler,not very bored,mayb becoz the teacher tat gv talk very funny n 幽默....he taught wif some jokes..funny la!!!!n watched some terrible accident videos....not bored at all,all jz basic knwledge tat some of them tat i duno n didnt realised..haha...

talk bout something dat i very stress,duno why,there's got the chance dat i can go for interview to teach chinese in a tuition centre...but duno why,i a bit scare,n not dare to go for interview becoz i think dat my chinese very laoya..evendo it is better than my english standard...i lose my confidence again..sienz de boh...why dun jz try...ya,i dun hv experience in teaching,but then i need to try oso so tat i knw dat i m suitable to this job or not,or i reli cannot be a teacher..but then why jz need chinese teacher la....blur...reli blur...shud i go for the interview 2moro???wat shud i scare la~~~~~~~haiz...mayb i shud gv myself a chance.....我们展翅高飞，我们手牵着手，一起飞向我们的天空～～～～（颜帅的歌。。。hehehe...打歌打歌）

talk about something tat 可喜可贺。。。my brother permohonan to study in SMk Batu Lintang being approved,so he no need go to study in sungai maong lo....hahaha..happy happy...becoz i think dat smk bl is a good school,well disciplined...i knw dat becoz i study form 6 at there..my parents very happy oso...my brother bit kelian la,coz he need naik school van, be4 dat,my mum bring him to school de..yo,ur sister me!dulu oso naik school bus mar......can masuk bl,dun blame too much liao...haha...


sigh....worry bout job...dat guru sandaran tiada berita pun...those malay schools i apply reli dun need teacher meh???sigh...the worst...teach chinese nia lo....

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh!!!!!many things to worry...

推荐韩剧-On Air + 我的生活

《On Air》是由执导过《巴黎恋人》、《布拉格恋人》及《恋人》等剧的申宇哲导演及金恩淑作家共同合作的作品，在制作初期就吸引了许多人的关注。《On Air》主要描述电视剧导演、作家、演员及经纪人的生活和爱情，同时还将直白地表现出韩国电视剧的制作过程，尤其是剧中还将出现演员、经纪公司、演艺圈的绯闻等幕后故事，这样反映现实性的故事内容，将会激发起许多人的好奇心。
　　同时，《On Air》还请到了宋允儿、金荷娜、朴龙河及李凡秀等极具号召力的演员共同出演，而李孝利、全度妍、金恩贞、李瑞镇等大牌明星也将在剧中客串，如此明星阵容可谓空前强大。
　　该剧以韩国SBS电视台为故事发生背景，主要讲述了发生在经纪人张基俊、当红艺人吴胜儿、电视剧制片人李京民以及名编剧徐英恩之间的故事。
　　SBS电视台的年度颁奖礼上，当红艺人吴胜儿突然拒绝上台领奖，因为她得知自己和别人同时分享一个奖项，心中感到十分不快，她的经纪人，也是非常有名的Zhang Entertainment公司的首席代表张基俊，替她上台澄清拒绝领奖的理由。吴胜儿是韩流中心的顶尖明星，身为演员, 虽然拥有非常高的人气, 但是在演技方面却获得极低的评价, 是个总在艳丽背后感到孤独, 喜欢沉溺在自我耻辱感当中的人物。内心是梦想成为真正演员的人。但是很多人看到的只是风光的表面，这让她时不时感到痛苦。也就是从这时起，做为名编剧，曾创下收视神话的徐英恩，在与吴胜儿的合作过程当中，发生了许多冲突故事……

刚刚看了大结局，我之前不爱看韩国戏，因为都爱哭哭啼啼的，所以较喜欢看台湾戏。。。之前是想下载给妈妈看的，前几集我不太有看，大概第十集开始看，因为发现到蛮好看的，发现到拍戏真的不简单，也许这部戏是要给观众看看拍戏幕后的辛苦，所以绝对不是太心酸的电视剧，而且剧里的作家-宋允儿的演技很好，有搞笑的表情。。哈哈，看了这部戏之后，我觉得以后如果看到一些戏不是我想象中那样的话，我应该要体谅一下作家，也许他改剧本改了又改，而且要顾及其他人呢。。哈哈。。终结，这是我推荐的戏。。。

说说我最近的生活吧，简直是简单的生活，代替妈妈的工-煮菜，上网，看电视，睡觉。。。很简单吧？？？有时会很想念我的朋友们，i miss you all,有些偶尔有联络，有些的。。。简直不知忘了我没有，在干嘛我都不知道。。。哈哈。。我希望快点做工，这种日子不能过久，不然会废掉。最近偶尔（晚上打雷不能上网）有看华语小说，蔡智恒的”暖暖“，我姐喜欢看这个作者的书，他的作品有几本在spm放假时看了，不错看，本来想看英文书的，可是发现到我的华语退步很多，而且很久没有读华语书了，现在读起华语书来，有种特别的感觉，很像重回老家一样，很安慰，很轻松。。。华语不愧是我的母语，还是有那种感觉。。。哈哈哈～～～～

就那样，祝大家圣诞节快乐啦

开始发霉。。。开始无聊。。。开始怀念以前的日子。。

觉得，有点无聊了。。。
每天就是睡觉，吃东西，上网。。。
有点快要发霉了，
因为不会驾车，所以不能出去玩，除了星期天。。。
开始有点无聊，觉得人生失去目标（有点夸张）。。。
希望我能中临教，就算马来校也无所谓。。。
最近都在听歌，听过年歌，MYFM 的牛转乾坤庆团圆蛮好听的。。。
再来就是想着要减什么头发，因为差不多长了，可以换发型了，但绝对不是以前的那种短发，可是又不知道要减怎样的？
然后再想我要煮什么菜，无聊到明天打算做寿司了。。。
就是每天想要吃什么，然后再发白日梦就是我每天做的事情。。。。
有点怀念读书的日子，去学校的日子，去补习的日子，和朋友在一起的日子。。。不知道你们最近在做什么？？
王力宏的新歌-心跳，很不错。。很喜欢。。。呵呵。。不知专辑几时出。。。以前对王力宏没什么兴趣，可是被我一个朋友影响到，开始觉得他很帅，而且唱歌也好听。。。尤其是那个MCDonald的广告。。。
最近都在帮我爸download on air,几时才会轮到我的Gossip Girl 啊。。。以前不爱看洋片的我，也是被我那个朋友影响到，才知道原来有英文字幕的英文戏可以下载～～～～
就那样。。。继续发霉@@@@@@@@@～～～～～～#######××××××

颜菀倩-只要你

我听着你 听听你为何担心
我呼吸着是你的气息
我看着你宝贝 没有问题
很多人不敢肯定
最爱会在初恋
我肯定这一次我的眼
我清楚你 不想放弃
无论多少的冷言和打击
我们一起 绝对不是无理
选择你是不变的决定
我清楚你对我 也清楚我没错
不相信他们的胡言乱语
我不理全世界愿不愿意
所有的障碍让我更明白
只要你
我听着你 听听你为何担心
我呼吸着是你的气息
我看着你宝贝 没有问题
很多人不敢肯定
最爱会在初恋
我肯定这一次我的眼
我清楚你 不想放弃
无论多少的冷言和打击
我们一起 绝对不是无理
选择你是不变的决定
我清楚你对我 也清楚我没错
不相信他们的胡言乱语
我不理全世界愿不愿意
所有的障碍让我更明白
只要你
闭上眼都看见 不管近还是远
只要是 爱着你 一切就好
有一些感情 只要相信 就会实现
我清楚你 不想放弃
无论多少的冷言和打击
我们一起 绝对不是无理
选择你是不变的决定
我清楚你对我 也清楚我没错
不相信他们的胡言乱语
我不理全世界愿不愿意
所有的障碍让我更明白
只要你

今天爽到爆～～～

christmas tree at The Spring....


brother wif chocolate chip..his 6A reward in UPSR


caramel cream

sit inside the starbuck becoz i love the fragrant smell of coffee~~~

今天去了肯雅兰，真的是有过年气氛，因为圣诞都还没到，一踏进里面就是过年歌，很多人买哦。。。虽然距离过年还有一个月，每次肯雅兰都是那么有过年气氛。。。很久没去肯雅兰了，想要看看市面上有什么歌，回家可以download,顺便找颜宛倩的专辑还有MyFM推出的过年专辑-牛转乾坤大团圆。。。果然到处都在卖。。可是叻却没看到颜宛倩的专辑。。。那个过年歌蛮好听的。。。晚上到The Spring去逛，多人到carpark都full啊。。。到MPH打算找twilight的书，找啊找就是没有看到，我问店员，竟然告诉我“finish oredi"....什么？？？？！！！！有点失望到，想不到那么销！之后我到Speedy去打算看有没有卖颜帅的专辑。。。当我正要离开时，果然给我发现到，因为size较小的“它”被人家藏在后面了。。。跟其他的正版比较，这个EP算便宜了，那个周董的专辑，walau，只能看不能买，很贵Ler，尤其那个有铁盒的，80多块。。。一边想象那张专辑的音效肯定很好。。。过后就去Starbuck,很久没有喝了，可是我弟去，所以引诱到我。。。所以买了算便宜的caramel Cream,

omg!!!!

每次喝starbuck都会兴奋到，爽到忘记我是谁啦。。。太好喝了！！！可是有点心痛，因为是有点贵啦。。。而且超爱它的咖啡香味。。。外面的圣诞树很高很美，配合着夜景，简直美极了～～～今天爽到爆。。很久没那么high了。。颜帅EP超棒的。。。。好听

带我离开这个星球～～～～～～～

Free~~~~

之前是考试，忙到半命。。。
现在考完试，很闲的叻。。。
很多时间都在上网，看电视，睡觉，煮菜。。。
之前不能做的事都统统做了。。。
报仇啊～～～毕竟才刚放假，还没有那种很sienz的感觉。。。还在享受。。。
那个Doulas,船上卖书的，很想去。。因为没有看过。。。希望有机会可以去。。。
一直幻想自己可以在kl,因为那边很像很多歌星去那样，还有，颜宛倩叻！！！我再次喜欢上这种中性人的歌手，不是我变态，是因为，颜宛倩的声音真的不错，人家是astro新秀冠军叻～～～ 多么想做追星族。。我为什么不是在kl啦！！！！

就那样。。。我现在生活就是吃喝玩乐！！！！！

Twilight + Gloria's Christmas party

this mng,i was oversleep..i plan to wake up at 10am becoz my dad free at tht time,so can bring me to Boulevard to get the guru sambilan form frm jing yee,thx to leh tiing n jing yee dat willing to get the new format form at Bako when tey were goin there.But then this mng i was oversleep,i woke up at 1130 coz i think sleep quite late last nite...is peter's call dat woke me up(he oways call me nt at the right time,duh)...but then i didnt answer his call...i quickly called my dad but he said he will b free at 1 smting..sad...after tat i recif msg frm leh tiing dat asking me wan to join them or not,quite surprising when recif her msg duno why...so i changed my mind wan to join them since long time no see stella oso...wat to do..she is not goin to santubong bah...When i reached Boulevard,they decided to go cinema,so we follow Chuk Moi's car going there...we watched Twilight..OMG!!!!The vampire in that movie so handsome..电死我了啦～～～n then even his family members oso engdao 到爆！！！i can heard somebody shouting "omg" when the vampire come out in the movie....duno why,today the spectators all very high one,shouting n laughing....But then duno wat to say..i think i will download the movie again lo...hahaha...after watching movie,chuk moi n me naik bus to her house becoz tonite we have a christmas party at gloria's hz...i think this the first time i follow friend naik bus...i not dare to naik bus goin to a place becoz i scare i naik the wrong bus..so quite a good experience for me...7am,we went to gloria's hz..we played games at there,n watch a story of 何耀珊..n then we have kuiz which for those tat can answer the questions correctly will have a present,tat is 何耀珊original album...i like original album odo i never listen any songs frm this singer....but so lucky,i got the album!!!so lucky since so many ppl dat raise their hand becoz the qtion quite easy...after tat,we have our meal..then we listen to gloria's mummy stories bout how she start to believe Jesus,before and after.....i enjoy the stories becoz we jz like gain more knwledge....this party made me feel touched....especially when listen to gloria's story,i omos cry....(i oways tat 感性）..we oso got mentioned bout form six,her mum said she quite worry bout gloria when she was sitting for the exam....walau,talking bout STPM,i will sudenly feel scare n down coz it quite a nightmare for me....gloria's mum got tell us it is a good experience for everyone of us dat studying form six becoz nt everyone hv dat chance...

Today is wonderful,hang out wif stella,jing yee,chuk moi...n then attend a christmas party..n then 让见识到Edward Cullen的帅气。。。omg~~~~~~~

for me everytime spending time with this group of form six friends

is so precious for me,coz i will never knw when

we will meet again

tagged by kong jing yee

Rule 1: People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule 2 : Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?~ sure la...who dun have secret..duh!!!!

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?~ if can avoid then avoid...

3. What will you do if you know you are going to die by tomorrow?~ spend the time wif my parents,friends n say"i love u all.."(actually got many kok)

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?~ Buy house,car,the things i like,go travelling,gv money to my parent for honey moon,donation....

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?~ mayb..coz if can be best fren,mean dat person knw u more n more ngam key

6. What do you prefer? Touching story or happy story?~ Both

7. List recently watched movies.~ 4gt...long time didnt watched coz exam...

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?~ sad n accept...

9. How old do you think you will live to?-no idea..but i hope it will be longer

10. Do you have any regrets?~ Yes, of course. so many!!!!but most important is i regret dat i cant study non- stop so tat i can get 4 flat...after tat i regret i ever hurt a fren coz i dun mean to hurt anyone...

11. What are your favourite emoticon used recently?~ None.

12. What are your favourite saying recently?ngaidi,sienz
13. What kind of person do you think the person that tagged you is?~ a nice person dat i hope God can gv her the love dat she wan so tat she can be happy

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?~ hard to choose..single but have plenty of money,wat use???no meaning coz dun have love n dun hv partner n childrens to share my money.

15. What is your favourite color?~ purple,orange

16. Would you give all in a relationship?~ nope,but i will serious in it

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, which one would you choose?~ the one dat can gv me kebahagiaan

18. What are the top 5 places on your "to-go" list?~ China,Taiwan,Japan,Korea,Western countries

19. Name 3 things you would like to do but would never be able to.~ GET 4 FLAT!!!!!!BECOME A DOCTOR!!!!dun wan to hurt anyone..become "le guan"in everythings coz me kinda "bei guan" person

20. 5 people I have tagged.~gloria,ting ting,chuk moi,leh tiing(105%no response，可是偏要tagged 你啊！！！怎样？？？),wan ying

santubong trip-我爱大海

jz came back frm santubong,3 days 2 nite trip wif gp of frens,ting ting,wan ying,chuk

moi,boon,suk thin,ming huang,science 2 guys n....cant list all...bout 13

ppls...gloria,elizebeth,natalia,jessica came on the second nite n overnite there...jz came back,dun

feel tired...so decided to write my diary here...

bertolak frm kuching to santubong wif ting ting's car....

Reached there...the chalet is big enough n nice...have 2 rooms...one for girls n one for guys(sure

la!!!)...we clean our room,coz the rooms look dusty n we think we gonna sleep on the floor...after

dat,we go to beach..the ombak at tat time can be decribed as "po tao xiong yong"....mayb edi

reached year end..kwong yong said angin monson bertiup bah...

n dat time,the bendera at the beach is red flag..mean dangerous!!!!! duno why i so excited when

see the beach!!!!after dat me n chuk moi play "逃浪”.....when the ombak is coming,both of us jz

run n shout oso...after a while,we saw our frens at the other end...so we jz go there after warm

up...hahahaha...after dat,we jz play wif the sea water,任意的让浪打在我们身上。。。感觉很

爽。。。可是全身是沙。。还喝到咸咸的盐水。。。还一直的喊。。因为浪真的很大。。。就有

一个字可以形容“爽” n so high....after that we went to swimming pool...but i duno hw to

swim...jz terapung at there n 看热闹。。。因为游泳池都是我们的声音。。。at nite,we eat

steamboat...taste nice...especially eat wif frens is so much nice...after dat,i go to played pc game n

ps2 till 12pm..feel surprise why all of them sleep so early..but i dun have the feeling to sleep at all

becoz it quite early..but wat to do..ntg to do...but i cant sleep well dat nite...becoz its too cold!!!!!!

omg...已经转到最小了还那么冷。。是不是坏掉啊。。。结果有几个朋友伤风了。。我也有一

点。。。可是叻，真的是睡不着。。。睡不着。。。而且那个床会不会太硬了。。感觉上有块木

板在背后很痛叻。。。可是竹妹睡地板叻。。。我不可以嫌了啦。。。结果整晚没有睡。。。早

上跟着他们在六点半起床。。。每个都说冷～～～看来那个冷气真的有问题。。。我心想怎么

办，第二晚不用睡了啦。。。结果就到海滩散步。。。然后和婷婷到处走走看风景和拍照。。。

然后在游泳池旁边小睡。。。感觉温暖多了～～～哈哈。。。下午本来约好迟些去海边的。。可

是讲话到大家陆续睡着，包括我。。醒来下雨，好不容易等雨停了。。就到海边放风筝。。今天

的浪很大一下，wying 前一天说了要豁出去，所以和sook thin 他们玩浪。。。可是感觉上浪很

大，天很黑，海边都没有人，可能都被吓到不敢来了，所以只有我们的geng在那边。。。我和竹

妹没有玩，我们在保护裤子，虽然有浪打在我们脚上。。。可是尽量避免。。事实上我们俩前一

天就已经玩过了，而且醒来迷迷糊糊，忘记换裤。。结果我们俩的裤子还是湿掉。。可见浪有多

大。。。 晚上到了，晚餐是泡面。。。那天晚上有点小伤风，也许吹太久海风。。。婷婷说喝了

red wine会舒服点，所以我也喝了几口，前一晚我是喝有放100plus 的。。。可是现在喝的是纯

的。。。感觉很特别。。因为喝下去热热的。。。第一次喝。。不错。。只是身体热热。。。那

晚我想今晚不用睡了啦。。前一晚都那样了。。。虽然觉得很累。。。因为胃不舒服。。。所以

吃了药就打算小睡一下。。因为那时其他人都不知去哪了。。。想要半夜起来玩的。。。哪里知

道这一睡，一起来就七点半了。。哇。。吓到，竟然一觉睡到天亮。。。真是爽。。。我想中途

肯定很多人进进出出。。。可是我完全没有感觉。。。而且也没有做么梦。。。可能太累

了。。。或者红酒作祟。。。竹妹说他喝了两杯（厉害），感觉晕晕的，然后也是一觉睡到天

亮。。。然后第二天。。。就回了。。没有太多好写。。相信看别人的部落格写的会更好

看。。。呵呵。。。我发现到很多时候都是对着海。。（因为我们的chalet是看得到海的。。。

对着海沉思。。。哈哈。。而且很享受这个trip啦。。。毕竟第一次和朋友出去玩嘛。。。。而

且竹妹姐，半年没见到她叻。。。变瘦了。。。而且想学她的绝技-四分钟吃虾法（有壳的虾）

就那样。。。。享受接近大海的时刻。。。。

新秀五强 - 我们会再见 MV

喜欢颜宛倩的声音。。。很power的声音！！！！不愧是冠军。。。。我们会再见。。很感动的歌

Miss voon,我真的有好好学bio....

整天都在睡觉。。。因为生病了，不是什么大病，只是轻微发烧和喉咙疼，睡了整天觉，现在好点了。。。我的病一定要好！！！礼拜天还要去santubong的叻。。。Jing yee不能去santubong，我觉得有点失望咯。。。她也是失望。。。毕竟她很想去的。。。可是叻，我也有失望到啦，因为不能跟她和丽婷出去玩，是谁叫我不会驾车，又和他们住的地方差那么远。。很想和他们出去玩咯。。。去看电影，去The Spring。。。

今天偶然想到想要找工了。。。想要回batu kawa看有临教好当吗。。可是突然有种感觉，就是有点不好意思见到我的bio 老师。。。因为spm我出奇的拿不到A1给她，我已经很愧疚了。。。现在stpm,我不能保证我能拿A给她。。。真是的。。。想到这里，心又疼了。。开始自责为什么没有背到jasad golgi,那样basic的问题。。。再自责为什么忘记一些应该记得的fakta!!!自责。。。bio 老师一直鼓励我们把bio学好。。。甚至上了中六她还托junior叮咛我们要好好学bio...我想说的是，老师，我真有好好学biologi,form 6我最喜欢，最期待，也是拿最高分的科目。。是您让我更热爱biologi的。。。而且前一天考数学，我还空出时间读bio...krebs cycle,calvin cycle,什么cycle都读了。。。可是考试当天，竟然是jasad golgi,还有plant,明明前一晚还有读的，竟然忘记一小部分。。。说到bio,就是个伤。。。我不会怪运气不好，出到我不擅长的，只怪自己为什么忘记，些许责怪MP##干嘛把bio放在math前一天,还我那晚崩溃的学biologi....结果。。。

老师，你是我的恩师，没有你教我bio,我就不会那么喜欢biologi,没有你的鼓励，我就早就因为拿不到A1而放弃读bio,来日有机会肯定会报答您。。。

总之就是，想到bio我心还是会痛。。。难道form5的遗憾再次发生？？？

我的hamster~~~~~

放假没事做，所以趁洗它们的家时，来个特写。。。很难拍它们的，因为一直在动。。。你主子无聊，当我的模特儿吧。。。。介绍我的宝贝，我家的宠物，小百（Albino）和小褐（chincilla)...

可爱～～～


最近常下雨，人要盖被子，
老鼠叻也忙着杠纸回家保暖，
连窗口也～～～～



小褐，危险啊～～～～下来，家不是给你那样
爬得！！！

别离家出走啊～～～

美丽的家

大家好，我是小褐（也叫chincilla)


我的宝贝

wendy's hamster family

屋顶飞走了～～～快逃

小白（也叫albino)，别走～～～～

考完试要干嘛？？？

考完试要干嘛？？？？？终于可以想这个问题了。。。。哈哈



考完试我很多事要做。。。



第一：刚刚决定的，和朋友去santubong,三天两夜，礼拜日到礼拜二。。。突然决定的，说服了ting ting...hehe...说实在的。。不曾和朋友出去玩过。。。所以很期待。。。本来不想去的。。。可是最后想想，可能以后没有那个机会了。。。而且考试压力蛮大的，现在只想放松一下，而且和ting ting疯狂拍照。。。哈哈。。。（jing yee对不起，我最后还是去了。。。可以叫丽婷陪你）

第二：疯狂看偶像剧，上网，听歌，下载歌，听歌。。。睡到自然醒，想做么就做么，总之就是玩！！！！哈哈哈～～～

第三：学车。。。期待已久。。终于学车了！！！那样迟才学。。。（婷婷，我有机会载你去玩的啦～～～）

第四：上网找适合的发型。。因为要换发型了。。我一直以来的短发是爽啦。。。只是。。。是时候换了。。。可是还是喜欢短发。。。可是不是现在这种较tb的。。。而且还要染发～～～啊哈哈哈！！！！！

第五：找工。。打算玩到腻了才找工。。。要赚钱啦。。。今年开销很大，电话坏掉，还买新的，又学车，幸亏有biasiswa kecil,不然。。。。

第六：哈哈。。。。过年去jakarta玩！！！！第一次过年不在家。。。这次应该很爽。。因为跟团。。。

第七：希望和朋友保持联络。。。。

第八：还没想到。。。。



有时还是会想起考试的事情。。因为也会担心考不好。。。



PA1 : 问题出错。。。我做到那题，可能紧张，所以有点混乱。。而且一向拿手的jadual突然今年没有出。。。所以信心不大。。。

Chem ：inorganic 多到吐血。。。还有什么silicone的。。。有点难，希望organic能帮我。。。所以还是信心不大。。。

BIOlogi:最担心的，最失望，因为我的esei感觉上写到不是很顺畅，没有真正背到那些题目。。有些还忘记。。。我很自责，因为我无法原谅自己忘记。。。失望自己平时记得了的题目没有出到。。。还有办法。。。我现在伤心也没用。。。我已尽力了。。。biologi,我一直很拿手的，也是最喜欢的科目。。所以，考完bio后，我几度崩溃。。。也许我压力太大了。。。haiz...

Math :这科无话可说。。就是有些问题是我真的不会。。。终究要有些题目来决定A的嘛。。stpm,拿A不是容易的。。。成绩出来。。那就是我的程度。。。可是不是A 咯。。。这科我表现较满意的啦，因为有些题目没有想到我会做得出。。。出乎意料。。。不会的就是不会。。。就算现在叫我做我也不会。。。考这科时，我很拼的。。我希望不要有粗心咯。。。



就是那样。。。结论就是我尽力了。。现在就是祈祷考官好好改我的考卷。。。不要改错。。
忘记考试～～～我们放假啦！！！！


last day wif school uniform.....

终于考完了。。。

刚刚考完chem1,最后一张。。。
先说chem吧。。。觉得还蛮难的。。。而且很热。。。热得我都受不了。。。

回家前，我们sains1来张大合照。。。然后就迅速回家，因为爸爸等很久了。。。都还没来得及看看我朋友的脸，看看这个美丽的学校。。。就跳上车回家。。。

心情不是很开心咯。。。可是考完那一刹那。。。真的很兴奋，很感动。。。因为努力这一年半，今天终于结束了。。。想起这一年半，相信班上的每一个学生，都很努力，甚至到考试接近时，有些还常常“黑”起了脸，而且非常严肃。。。大家压力都很大。。。包括我。。。哈哈。。可是现在都结束了。。一切都已经成为回忆。。。

不喜欢离别的我，终究是会舍不得这班朋友，虽然以后大家都会再见面，可是毕业以后，就不会像以前那样，星期一到星期五，在班上一起上课。。。。而且不知下次见面是几时，我又不会驾车嘛。。。想不到短短的一年半，竟会让我觉得。。。真的很舍不得。。。想到都会想哭。。。我痛恨离别。。。想起那时一个朋友要去读师训，我都不舍得，最后还哭叻。。。现在～～～～～

虽然stpm很难，而且压力很大，可是我还要说，我没有后悔选择中六。。。因为除了难以外。。。真的没什么坏处，可以学到很多东西。。。而且享受校园生活，一班十九个学生的生活。。。而且读了中六以后，觉得自己真的很厉害，很光荣。。。因为每一个读中六的人，都是很厉害的。。。虽然得不到想要的成绩，可是一路以来的努力和坚持，就证明了我们并非失败。。。

我会想念这一切。。。
想念我们的班，block c,第2楼，u6s1...
想念我的老师puan wong,puan jennie,mr lee,puan sng,puan yeoh,mr fong...
想念我的朋友们，
想念每个早上和ting ting一起上厕所，
想念上厕所没有带pass,
想念食堂的mee jawa,laksa,mee hong kong,还有那个看起来不营养可是却吃很多的hot dog....
想念我做的桌子椅子。。。
想念在礼堂等车的日子。。。
想念block 后面的“厕所”路。。（风景很不错）
想念jing yee 的笑声。。。
想念丽婷的hak chiu 声（不管冷不冷，都会hak chiu)，
想念所有人的笑声，
想念打乒乓的朋友，
想念学校的一草一木。。。
想念这一切。。。。

朋友

能成为朋友，
是一种缘分，
上天安排我们两做朋友，
是含有意义的，
在这几亿人口之中，
我们能相遇，
能作为朋友，
真的很幸运，
朋友，
也许我们不能手牵手过一生，
可是我永远不会忘了你，
给我带来的欢乐。。。
朋友是金钱买不到。。。
永远珍惜友谊的可贵。。。
给你你要的空间，
虽然争执过，有误会，
可是你永远是我朋友。。。。

考完PA1。。。+ 跌倒。。衰～～～

刚考完PA1。。没什么感觉。。就很PA！！！ 有些问题有乱到～～～精神不是很好，三更半夜突然起来，之后就不太会睡。。结果刚才有时会走神。。。可是还能控制啦～～～
考完书，拿了bank book,打算去Bank看看多少钱。。哪里知道，人多到！！！！check 钱时，尽然政府还没进钱给我～～～不用紧。。。我太急了。。。出去时。。到了一个蛮高的地方（不会很高），我爸说“跳下去”。。我看着这个高度，应该没问题。。。就想下怎样跳。。哪里知道，我算错，或跳错。。结果跌倒了。。。脚擦伤，流血一点，蛮痛的。。裙只也沾满了泥土。。。丢脸死。。。真是的，跳水沟都不会，好才水沟不大。。。应该看下ah boon 怎样跳先嘛！！！真是的。。。。
衰。。钱没进到，还跌到。。。
累～～～睡觉去。。。明天bio 1....

安静了。。S.H.E.

这个MV～～～～有我喜欢的小天哦～～～～超爱这首歌～～～～～WOOhOOOOO

学会放下

累与不累，主要取决于自己的心态。

快乐与不快乐，就看你是否学会了放下。

放下，是一种生活的智慧。

放下，是一门心灵的学问。

放下压力，活得轻松；

放下烦恼，活得幸福；

放下自卑，活得自信；

放下懒惰，活得充实；

放下消极，活得成功；

放下抱怨，活得舒坦；

放下犹豫，活得潇洒；放下狭隘，活得自在……
人生在世，有些事情是不必在乎的，有些东西是必须清空的。该放下时就放下，你才能够腾出手来，抓住真正属于你的快乐和幸福!

Pa1...我就是讨厌你！！！！崩溃～～～

在我的读书生涯里，我就是讨厌历史！讨厌背历史！SPM就是因为你我的历史拿B3！！！！
现在来个PA1。。以前不管我怎样读，就是不能记到完！！！！
我现在没什么心情!我很累！！！！！
现在的我失去战斗力！考试前那股战斗力呢！！！跑哪里去了？？？？！！！！！那个死都不放弃的今精神叻！！！！！

昨晚因为心情不好，和朋友sms时说了很多废话。。。对不起啦朋友，我知道你不爱我说废话，可是那时我就是疯了！！！！对不起啦～～～～对不起！！！！（最近还是少和朋友SMS，免得伤及无辜。。。）

今天会是难熬的一天。。逼自己学PA1。。。天气热到不像话。。真是的！！我心情那样低落，就不会下雨的哈？？？？？
幻想突然我的朋友们会不会寄信息来鼓励我。。。拜托，现在朋友们都忙着学书，鬼理你哦！！！事实上在家人面前我闭口不说考试，因为不要他们担心。。。。你女儿无能啦，当不了医生。。。自己奋斗，自己承担！！！
blogger 就像我朋友那样。。什么东西都跟它讲。。我没人好讲了。。家人不能说，朋友不能说

我要去读PA1了。。。。没有到星期三，3点45分。。陈薇鑫！！你都不可以放弃！！（心情不好到和弟吵架，对不起啦，你老姐疯了，不要惹她）

Math n form 6

今天考好math之后。。。我可以很肯定地说。。。这就是STPM.。。因为还是有很难的问题，虽然考试前，都有学书，问题出来，有些还是不会做。。。因为数学又不是死的。。。真的有难到。。。这就是所谓的STPM考试。。。很多人说世界上难考排第三的。。。我真的学书了，可是有些就是不会做！！！！说我笨吗？？？我也不知道。。。。就是很要用脑的问题。。。

考试温习前。。。学到diffentia equation......很多种问题，我就在祈祷，考试千万不要出那种有关联到volume的什么有个cylinder,加水，水漏出来多快等等。。。因为那个是我最不会的，以前spm就不会了。。。很多问题可以出事实上，可以出像前几次mr chin 考的那种，都不会说很难。。。偏偏今天的paper竟然跟我出那个volume de,还不用紧。尽然什么里面有什么salt...brine solution...然后倒水进去，然后又流出来。。。。叫我form equation....ngaidi,我都不懂它要什么，难道那个salt一起流出来？？？还是融化在里面。。。我知道我想太多。。。老师讲过prove不出不要紧。。就integrate...哪里知道，equation看起来很复杂。。。真是的。。。我就是不会做！！！！

感觉有点失落。。。真的。。。想当年。。。刚进中六，立志说要当医生。。。最后，努力，失败，在努力。。。最后STPM,比我想象中有难度。。。。

当年，我不被matric录取。。。被录取的朋友叫rayu,以我成绩应该能。。。可是，那是家人都不太鼓励我去matrix...所以就不理。。。现在，看来我当医生是不可能的了。。。也许我并不是很努力很努力的那种。。。也许压力把我打倒。。。让我失去信心。。。对自己要求太高。。。

也许我能说如果一个人很想当医生。。。又没有钱读private...那么matrix是最好的。。。当然以standard来讲，还有学的东西，中六是很多。。。可是matrix较容易拿4 flat...人家说上大学会较辛苦而已。。可是门都进到了。。还怕什么。。。像form 6...都学了。。问题出来还是有不会做的。。。不然学那么多，出来的就是那一part....我能说在中六要拿4flat....不容易。。。要很勤劳。。。像我班的考才生一样。。。睡觉时间少。。。娱乐比较少。。。就一直读书读书。。。说真的我办不到。。。。真的压力太大了。。。不然就聪明过人。。记忆力超好。。。但我肯定不是那种。。。我知道说这些没用。。。可是也许给那些忧郁是否要读中六的人的建议。。。

但中六还是有很多好处。。。学到很多东西。。。老师够经验。。。又有好补习。。。而且过着学校生活。。。还有庆辛得到这班朋友。。。

说真的，说了没用。。。有点失落。。。我不知道我失落什么。。。失落当不了医生？？？失落我考试时忘记学过的东西？？？？我不知道。。。我已尽力了。。。

还是要加油。。。还有paper1....

带我走-杨丞琳

Rainie yang- dai wo zou (CD version) - 楊丞琳yang cheng lin rainie

带我走－杨丞琳每次我总　一个人走交叉路口　自己生活 这次你却说带我走 某个角落　就你和我 像土壤抓紧花的迷惑 像天空缠绵雨的汹涌 在你的身后　计算的步伐 每个背影　每个场景 都有　发过的梦

带我走　到遥远的以后 带走我　一个人自转的寂寞 带我走　就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫 我不怕　带我走

每次我总　独自远走 抱着沉默　不邹眉头 这次你却　说一起走 彼此温柔　从此以后 像土壤抓紧花的迷惑 像天空缠绵雨的汹涌 在你的身后　计算的步伐每个背影　每个场景都有　发过的梦

带我走　到遥远的以后 带走我　一个人自转的寂寞 带我走　就算我的爱　你的自由都将成为泡沫 我不怕　带我走　

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Math 2..this thursday...i love math 2 than math 1 becoz math2 oways higher marks than math 1 n math 2 got geometri deduction n probability..(this two can kill u if the qtions reli hard)....i hope dat day i can have "super eye"..so that i can detect wat the qtion wan on geometri deduction~~~pls la...math pls dun be so kongbu...我受不了打击liao~~~~~我只是普通学生一个～～～放过我啦～～～～

这pucca 蛮可爱的～～～～

有够烦的。。。

自从考完生物后，

我的心情没有好过，

一天比一天糟。。

也许得了考后忧郁症，

因为偶尔会担心考过的科目，加点自责为何不能把生物做的最好。。。。

考前忧郁症也有，感觉上math2,很容易有难的问题。。担心。。。

总之就是心情不好。。。痛苦。。。折磨。。。

人家说，考后就不要想了，

问题是，讲很容易，可是我不能控制，除非我有超能力，把不开心的事给忘掉。。。

Ah Beng，wan peanut boh????pls read..funny

Ah Beng is a bus driver; one day got this old folks home "bao"(包) his bus for a day trip to Pulau Ketam.
Sitting right behind the driver's seat is Grandma Sue and from his rear mirror Ah Beng can see that Grandma Sue is happily munching away.
In the middle of the road trip, Grandma Sue tapped Ah Beng on his shoulder and asked him...Grandma: "Ah Beng ah! You want peanuts boh? Grandma treat you eat peanut ai mai?"Ah Beng: "Tenkiu ah ma... yes I want!"
Then Ah Beng also happy happy munching peanuts... about 20 minutes down the road, Grandma Sue asked Ah Beng again...Grandma: "Ah Beng ah! You want peanuts boh? Grandma treat you eatpeanut ai mai?"Ah Beng: "Tenkiu ah ma ... yes I want!"
To make the story short, this goes on for a few more times then AhBeng finally asks Grandma Sue...Ah Beng: "Ah ma ah ... you dont eat peanuts one meh?"Grandma: "No... no eat! Ah ma boh teeth la!"
Ah Beng: "Aiks! Boh teeth then why ah ma buy peanuts leh?"Grandma: "No choice leh! Just now that 7-11 is out of chocolate so ahma kena buy this peanut chocolate lor! Ah ma lick the chocolate around the peanut and the peanut give you eat lor!"

现在的我-没有感觉

没有感觉。。也许这次的STPM太过刺激。。chem的问题一直在我脑海里浮现。。觉得失望，学的都没有到半点。。却出一些意想不到的事情。。
今天报纸报导STPM PA2 的考题出错。。。标题：“把学生给害惨”一字。。相信别人肯定想。。这些倒霉的考生～～～对，我就是其中一个！不知是幸运还是倒霉，我的粗心毛病让我抄错号码。。。而那个号码就是错。。而我的粗心之下画出来的graf没什么问题。。所以没有怀疑。。为什么我不选carta pai bertingkat ler...我选的题目就是个陷阱。。而且我画得蛮辛苦。。pa2....bahagian E 更是惨。。。carta aliran 我只写过一次。。

算了。。。一切都已过了。。。我已尽力了。。。可是我偶尔还是会想起。。。毕竟这是我的前途。。。我能不能不去想。。。也许需要时间。。。我现在没感觉。。。

没感觉的我。。现在正努力的学math2...和paper1....

i have try my best,no regret...

jz finished those terrifying paper 2..not much to say..i cant say easy or hard..jz if i can do,then easy,i kenot do,then if i kenot do...oso cannot say is easy or hard...
study,i have try my best to study,still remember i try my best to memorise the organic,physical n inorganic,read n read n read...read so many..but finally come out so many inorganic...nitrogen n silikon..the silikon can kill me...n careless...i cant get 7 marks for dat quite easy kc calculation...but then organic qtions quite headache..hope my answers are correct...
biologi...still can do..but not very confident becoz the topic not the topic dat 我厉害和在行。。。if come out krebs cycle,ETC,calvin cycle,immune system,variation,muscular contraction n so mant dat bout human...but then..wat come out??mass flow,symplast,apoplast...i got read..but not much to write ler!!plant kok...pq qtion still ok...then non steroid hormone...15 marks?got so many meh..anyway...i duno how end it coz i 4got...cascade effect very confusing...math...bit bad luck...come out the one i reli tak faham de topic...calculate faedah or interest using number n series...actually i not good in dat...even i have read dat this mng..but i reli dun understand....be4 this,trial exam or doin papers or exam...no encountered dat type of qtions...so bit ignore it edi...haiz..wat can do...i admit dat...this time paper 1 i reli try my best edi...very serious when doin it until when 5 oclock...teh serious ever...but dat qtion 12!!!!!haiz...now wat i need to do is try my best in paper 2...coz frm my previous record..paper 2 better tnan paper 1...

say dun wan to say liao...还讲那么多。。。。没办法。。。我现在睡又睡不着。。。就心情有点低落。。。因为。。。4flat可能就这样没有了。。。我本来就知道我没有那个本事。。。可是。。还是会失望。。。

没关系。。我已尽了力。。

后面还有paper1....要加油。。

最后。。。

这应该是我考stpm前最后一个文章。。。

我什么都不想说。。。

只想对自己，家人，朋友，老师说。。。

我会尽力的。。。

我现在没有什么奢求。。只想。。。

祈祷能以最佳状态去考试，不要再粗心。。。学以至用。。。

阿弥陀佛

恐怖星期二，下礼拜真的很重要！！！！！

恐怖星期二，18号，十一月，2008年。。。。

考stpm的第一天。。。。

竟然！！！！！

pa2在早上，chem2在下午。。。。

我也搞不懂为什么会那样。。。就是那样。。。

我本人觉得蛮恐怖的。。。因为第一天考试一定会特别紧张。。竟然情绪还没定，就要考chem第二张。。两张重要的考卷。。如果pa2考不是很好。。肯定会情绪受干扰。。还是别想那么多。。

基本上下礼拜都是恐怖的。。因为都是考第二张。。

下礼拜真的很重要！！！决定我人生的时刻。。。如果万一假设那张考不好，我也许会严重受到打击。。

所以我一定要镇定！！！！！！！

will i go mad be4 i sit for stpm???

i almost mad!!!!!the stress jz accumulate everyday...worrying!!!!i reli scare...if i cant get good result...wat will hapen!if i cant get good course,wat will hapen!!!if i cnt get good job,wat will hapen..i knw i cnt think so much..but jz need to study hard n study hard!but....i reli tired..hafal all doesnt mean remember all...remember all doesnt mean can apply on the qtion...so many things need to remember...
i knw i need to be calm...but do have times i cnt control my mind...n some topics like reproduction of plant reli hard to remember....reli feel wan to cry when wan to input something but it dun wan to get in!!!
compared to spm,stpm不能比！！！！spm much more easier evendo still have it difficulties...i gonna crazy!!physical chem,organic chem,inorganic chem,math 1,math 2....ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!becoz so many topics we need to study,so do have some topics we can remember well...but oso have topics jz difficult to remember!becoz too much topics!lucky mean the topics u remember come out in exam!anyway,as a student,shud try my best to remember all the topics...n try to be calm to avoid careless....
i m gonna mad,mad n mad

thanks for the wishes

exam jz around the corner...so some frens send wishes to me...thru msgs..emails..thanks for all the wishes especially doreen n grace lim,my ping pong best geng...tey had wish me good luck quite many times...n oso my classmates dat always wish me jia you n gud luck...especially wan ying will said :"jia you"everytime we left...feel warm wif those wishes...
today surprisingly i received a msg frm miss li...my favourite teacher n my 恩师 frm smk batu kawa...she wished me good luck in coming stpm...n 加油。。。reli touch recif msg frm this teacher....haha...
anyway jz thanks for everything...evendo is nothing..but jz thanks..thanks to suk thin let me followed her car to library today oso...
i will study hard coz i wan to success n many ppl wan to see me success as well especially my parents...i will try my best so dat i wnt regret...

luckily i sit for mid year muet

today i sit for year end muet...quite tough compared to mid year de..haiya...no hope to get band 5 liao la..my last record jz dat 4marks left to band 5 de band 4 liao...wat can do...the reading part..teh qtion not dat dif.jz confusing...n then i read till sienz...evendo i quite like some passage like "women that like to drink" n "depression"....haha..i like this type of passage myb i m depress nw n i like to overthinking..haha...n i guess there which type of "overthinking" that i have...wakaka...writing...haiya..one word materialistic wan me write long esei..wan can do..jz bla bla at there lo...listening...not easy oso...need to think...except the one wif "night market"de...

haiz..suan le la...i thought i can get band 5 kok...nw may got band low 4...anyway,i didnt study well my english coz more emphasis on bio.chem,math....haiz...wat can do..it do nt included in cgpa..

Last day in this school

last day in this school..it does not include the day when we go to school to sit for exam...jz tha last day in the class wif my fellow frens n teachers....quite sad coz today is the last day we sit in class...listen to teacher's lecture n talk wif frens..still remember last year,i was a bit unwilling to come studying in form six...becoz my heart broken coz teh matriks dun wan accept me...n many ppl sokong me to choose form six...but i jz knw its all alasan n this is the hell for my next half an a month...nw...i m going to end form six...n i can say dat i m not regret to enter form six n bit wan to thanks matriks fro dun wan accept me...studying form six jz fun...4got bout the stpm stress...it is fun becoz its so much challenging n its standard is so high..n ppl dat heard dat form six's students jz dat geng...study a lot of things..n no need study sejarah,moral n all dat....n next thing is U6S1...study in this class so much different than form five class becoz jz 19 students in our class...n all r chinese...we have the same dream...n we work for dat dream...teachers all r the best n experience...i will never 4got all the students in this class...time wif them i treasure a lot...jz hope dat after stpm..we can still stay contact...
yesterday mng was something like Pecut STPM or wat...i not reli listen to it...n jz busy hafal my organic chemistry...until i quite blur when teh students clap hand or stand up....n finally we sing a song named "kau boleh" or wat i duno...actually i dun like dat song..duno how...jz dun like the 曲..but the next door guys change it to "puan paw n puan yeoh boleh"..so funny until i laugh till the end...n i reli shout "puan yeoh boleh"!!!!after dat i went to canteen wif my frens to have the last day eating at canteen..haha...i still eat my mee jawa..favourite food...after dat class cleaning time...n then surprisingly pa teacher came into our class to gv us moral support...ya.choose the correct qtions very important... lastly is the time puan wong talk to our class...bout work hard n pray hard...i knw dat getting good result not 100 percent depend on how much we have study...we sill need bit luck...n our prestasi on teh day we sit for exam so dat we can fully 发挥所长。。。
when the time puan lee n puan wong wish us all the best..actually i edi fil like wan to drop tears...it's quite usual when come to the last day i will cry...i m bit sentimental..even my fren wan to leave us i oso cry...but till the end she still in my class fighting wif us...crying jz a way dat i cnt control...but reli...我不舍得这一切。。。但人生当中就是那样。。。

all teh best to me n all my frens...today i recif a souvenier frm lembaga pengawas..jz a photo frame..i m goin to get the foto of our class "全家福”dat we took when the farewell day for bamboosis...n put the photo inside..sweet memory....

butterfly in the bathroom~~~~~

this morning,quite soi...force myself to wake up when my mum wake me up....go to toilet brush my teeth wif my eye half close....suddenly i feel bit uncomfortable...毛骨耸然。。。鸡皮疙瘩。。so i turn back atomatically....OMGGGGG!!!!!i saw a black butterfly flying across me....i didnt wear glasses so i jz c 一陀黑色东西。。。hng,butterfly,别以为我没带眼镜就看不到你！！！！i was shocked...quickly wash my mouth n go downstairs told my mum there is butterfly in the bath room..my mum unwillingly get the broom n go in the toilet...i hide myself in the bedroom,scare it will attack me...i heard teh sound "bang bang bang"...then my mum come out n told me "ok liao"..at here..i wan to apologise to butterfly lover,ancestor...i dun mean to kill this animal...or hate it...coz i reli scare it~~~~~i duno my mum kill it or not...but if my father will jz use a plastik bag to catch it n release it.....luckily...it did not came when i m naked taking bath...if not~~~~~cant imagine wat will hapen.....
today i was goin to school..surprisingly jz 6 students in the class...chem teacher was shocked coz usually this jz will hapen on friday...why i went to school???jz coz of math actually,coz some questions in pahang n malacca paper i dun understand...so end up wif i wake up early in the mng go to school...but today quite ok,not regret for goin to school coz pa teach us some keyword for bahagian d n e...i learnt dat if perubahan + antara need draw graf bar memesong...n math i learnt bout limit to infinity when there is modulus sign n others...chemistry oso learnt bout some marking format...actually i went to school oso caused by i jz left few days in my class...thursday is the last day...friday...haiz..the only year i didnt recif any prize in majlis penyampaian hadiah..last year oso of course....accident happen to my chemistry,so cnt get sp...but still go becoz of recif one piece of "pengawas" sijil...dun understand why muz force students go there jz coz of a sijil...can jz gv at another time...wasting my time...rather studying at home to get gud result later...i dun allow any accident or careless in my stpm later...after sit for many exam...i knw i prone to happen accident on my subjects...evendo i reli knw how to do...damm!!!!if accident happen again in stpm...i will regret or the whole life!!!wendy ar wendy....pls be careful!!!!!!
anyway i guess everyone of us will do better in stpm later becoz we have read more n try many qtions n papers....we r trained!!!!as long as the stpm qtion dun be dat weird n out of syllabus...or tricky....
haha...last friday for those dat went to school can go for dinner...today,we recif souvenier of Australia frm puan Sng 。。i choose a kangaroo...but it look like rabbit...similar wif my"honey" rabbit doll at home...it is my honey...becoz i hug it everytime i sleep,watch tv,online,studying sometimes....it accompany me since primary one....i not dare to show her here becoz it is quite "black"...so when i c dat kangaroo...i fall in love,n hang it on my pencil box....ming huang them oso choose koala bear...but then we relate “无尾熊” wif my fren's future children's name。。。ehem....jz joke but reli funny~~~~
2moro go school again..coz have bio...hope more students can come....quite weird wif jz 6 students in a class...

考试+愧疚+疲倦+压力

19 天。。。恐怖的倒数。。。害怕去倒数因为感觉到慢慢地接近考试。。。今天上某节课时，老师说。。。“now dont sleep also nevermind,u can sleep forever u want..wat u need nw is study hard,get into university,get high salary job!!!"我本人觉得很恐怖。。。因为那个也许就是我很在意的东西。。。老师给的压力多过家人给的。。但想想要不是老师一再地提醒，也许就没有那种紧张的感觉，一紧张就。。。现在睡觉，我也感到愧疚。。。虽然很累。。。可是多睡几下，就很愧疚。。。看电视一个钟头也很愧疚。。。可是我只能说我不是机器人，也不是天才，还是会感到压力。。。上网十五分钟也许就能轻松一下。。。多过那个时间就不行了。。。真的很累。。书很想学不完那样。。。压力难以抵抗。。。最近天气又发疯了。。。热的半命。。。没钱还冷气费。。。没巴士去图书馆。。。现在希望老天爷见谅点。。。不要那么热！我很怕热！也很容易热！！
现在我能做的，就是学书，学书。。。我还能做什么！！！！！就像我朋友说的从进中六开始就要知道努力！那就是我没有放弃的原因！！可是说要努力。。。不放弃不是我单独说了就算。。烦恼还是会来。。。还是会觉得累。。还是会学书学到头疼！还是会睡不着。。。有时我真的不能控制！可是我还是要克制！
明天不去学校了。。。加明天，我只有翘课两天。。。比起有些整个礼拜没来。。。希望学校不要那么计较。。我又不是去做坏事！！！！
Ar!!!烦！矛盾！愧疚！我对自己要求很高。。。我从以前就那样不是吗!要我放松我就是放不了！要我忘记不开心的事。。就是难！要我不和朋友说话，也是难。。。要我大方逃课！我也不敢！！
无论如何这就是我！就是人生！我就不相信我办不到！！！！

Trial result doesnt mean STPM result!!!hng!!!!!!!!!!

Having bad mood nw....not dat bad...jz bit sad n frustrated...coz i got back my report card today...sob..again i look at last trial result...reli.....i can say dat the last trial result is the most lousy perfomance in my form six life...i said lousy doesnt determined by the marks alone...lousy for this time becoz i can do much more better than dat...n dat is the grave for careless!!!!!!n dat shudnt be the result for a candidate dat will sit for stpm soon!!!!hurt...but anyway,trial exam doesnt mean result for stpm...it jz a exam to test how much u knw n ur mistakes n weakness...so i shudnt be frustrated becoz of dat lousy result for last trial..m i correct...i guess so...

Some teacher might said nw the marks u got is jz similar to ur marks when stpm later...actually i not quite agree wif dat...becoz i believe there is changes n improvement...unless u give up urself...like my second trial math exam for tuition...i reli increase 10 mrks for paper 1 compared to first trial evendo some ppl said dat 2nd trial bit difficult than trial 1....actually i didnt get satisfied result 4 trial 1 becoz plenty of mistakes even matrices!but when come to trial 2,i decrease my careless...n reli...i got higher marks...so i edi proved to teacher dat 10 marks can be increased....

yesterday jz sat for my muet speaking....walaueh..how come more nervous compared to mid year...evendo i edi get band 4 n teacher said dat band 4 is enuf to apply u..mayb i m candidate A..mayb my other candidates r my frens???mayb the bilik too silent????still remember when the time i wan to start task A....my heart beat increase till i can felt my heart omos come out!!!!task b..omg...did some mistakes dat shudnt be happened!!!shame...think of my marks bai bai got deducted for dat mistakes....i m not gonna said it out coz it reli..duno hw to explain...jz shame n lame...jz my other 2 partner n examiner knew dat...hehe...anyway,i still got another 3 paper...who knw those marks can help me got band 5....

felt much more better after write these "unhappy"things out...coz i reli duno who to tell...blog...sorry la...

Life for this month will be tough for everyone of us....hope we all have enuf strength to face it...i still got chance to change my cgpa...n i never 4got my dream,my ambition,i believe i have dat petential n ability,jz i cant lose to myself and stress....

对了，昨天在电视看到周杰伦新歌“给我一首歌的时间”的MV。。。真的太酷了。。。因为周杰伦穿的衣服，帽子，加上他的舞蹈是我很喜欢的哪种舞蹈。。。不知加什么名。。。就是那种。。。而且我超喜欢那首歌。。。有点Rnb...然后有点。。。不知怎样形容。。。就是我喜欢的feel。。。而且超酷！！！！！觉得周杰伦很厉害。。他的歌都很棒。。连写给S.H.E. de 安静了都是那么棒！！当然王力宏也不错。。以前不怎么欣赏他的音乐，知道遇到他的粉丝，就是我的朋友的影响下。。。开始觉得他也很不错。。。

bye....

没药医的病。。。

我得了没药医的病。。。考试忧郁症？？？担心，担忧，痛苦，无奈，彷徨。。。实在有太多的东西要记。。要背。。而且不会忘记。。。不会混乱。。。根本没有药医。。。虽然我爸是中医。。。有时连睡觉也在背formula...而且很像有人告诉你。。别睡了！！！快起来学书。。。有时想不要去学校。。。因为晚上可以学迟点。。比较静。。。不会热。。可是学校不允许。。。还我的早睡。。。别人可能在k书。。。我已会周公了。。。

明天要考muet....有点紧张。。。因为上次考过。。。所以比起上次没有那么紧张。。可是面对的是朋友。。所以很紧张。。。上次和陌生人的反而较轻松。。。反正他们不认识我。。。

越来越多功课，past year,还有其他学校考卷。。。现在能做的只是猛塞自己多一点练习。。。做到晕。。做到吐。。

只剩一个月不到就要大考。。。。我能正常，完美，健康的踏入考场吗？？？

我一直输给压力。。。所以这次不能输给它。。。

压力就是没药医的病！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

给我一首歌的时间-周杰伦

喜欢这首歌。。。很有情调的歌。。。

给我一首歌的时间，让你不再误会我

日子还是要过.....

evendo nw i m stress n tired coz of the stpm..but the times still go on...i cant pause it..wat i can do jz menghargai every moment n every minutes i hv nw

jz cut my hair last sunday,actually everytime be4 i cut my hair,i will ever think dat to let it long since i m a girl...girl is good to be long hair...but becoz of hot weather n dun wan to urus my hair since i was busy everyday n imagine dat when i doin maths till crazy,n the hair jz bertaburan like dat..omg...

so lastly i choose to cut it..n the time the barber cut my side hair..wat i feel is "好凉哦”。。。evendo i look like boyish...or anything...btu this moment is ok!!!i jz feel comfortable wif my new hair....as long as nw it doesnt be a burden to me..

This afternoon practice speaking wif ting2..MUET test is around the corner...i think dat will dat be possible i got band 5?mid year exam i left 4 marks to band 5,n last trial,3 marks for band 5...then year end...hahaha...no idea..but jz try my best...especially speaking,i do knw dat my grammar not good,but i oways try my best to think more pts n trying to let examiner think dat i m confiden wif my pts...

But..this time quite..same gp wif andrew lee n stella grl,both of them have good command of english...haiz..will i be too nervous...or like today practice.."笑场”..

Tones of past year n semenanjung paper waiting for me...tey r calling me...



The End....

说好的幸福呢-周杰伦

Something.....

Reli tired...tired...tired n tired..n tired...n tired...feel pleased i still can spent some time to go boulevard n eat a lot today...a good way to release tension...usually i eat a lot to release tension becoz i will never get fat n got satisfied...
Get jay's songs frm wan ying few days ago n baru nw i got time to put them into my mp4 n listen to it for 1 hour...majority of his songs reli nice..n i believe his new album sure nice becoz he is jay chou...
No music no life...i oways think like dat...listening music oso a good way to release tension becoz of the "feel" of the songs...recently quite many new n nice songs like SHE,Lee Jiu Zhe n Jay chou n wang lee hom in these few months...Music will never ditch me away..n can cure my sadness n lonely...especially when u sing them out..i can sing n good in remember lyrics..jz i seldom sing in front of ppl...
everytime i go on9,automatically i will go Puan Jennie's blog n abby blog to see any updated article n oso the shout box at teacher's blog...ermmm...read abby's blog become a habit for me when on9..but sometime feel sad n symphathy her..coz ever a good fren...wat i knw jz read her blog n encourage her as i can...becoz i knw she need encouragement n she will more happy when she knw she is not alone....when encourage her,at the same time oso encourage myself...i love to care ppl,evendo i m busy,i will feel happy n fun when forward sms to my frens n a fren dat we less talk to each other...dun have other meaning...jz a normal act...becoz i knw dat when we r stress or bored,receive care frm fren is so much warm...i oso love dat feeling...still remember when the time i wan sit for my spm,my teacher told me"u oways not enuf confidence,believe dat u can do it"...jz the simple words make me inspired...
these day when doin revision,found dat actually studying is so much enjoy n fun...especially chemistry...u will never think dat by studying organic chemistry,actually many compounds dat appear in our daily life...by studying biologi,will nw our body system n living organism...math lagi geng...jz short sentence,but the answer can be whole page!!!!!n one things,i love puan yeoh,my math teacher,these few month she teach us,i can say dat she is reli a good n experienced teacher....many words dat come out frm her mouth i will remember well..."continuity correction n next wat???standardise!!!!dun 4got to put square root!!!!!omg....yesterday when i sit for the exam of maths at mr chin there,when doin math qtions...tese words reli fly over my mind coz she have been mentioned dat for many times....haha....one of the reason i wnt take illegal study leave jz becoz of i wan to attend her class!!!!hahahaha...anyway...i feel appreciated coz of other teachers oso like puan jennie,mr lee n puan wong n puan sng....so i shud work harder since i have good teachers...
Omg...talking too much...is the time to sleep....still remember a fren ever told me "dont u knw sleep late not good for health????..."

Dats All

40 days...

count down 40 days for stpm...still remember in the past,when me sit for upsr n pmr exam...seems like less stress n ntg to think...n quite innocent...jz nw to study n study...n dun wan make my teachers n parents dissapointed..dats why can end wif straight A result...but when comes to spm n stpm...duno why,oways gv too much stress on myself...push myself too hard...mayb spm n stpm is much more harder...but i think stpm trainned to me to be more mature...n knw some ways to learn effectively...n learn how to 放下at sometimes...we need learn how to 放下at sometimes...if not..will feel very suffer...but stpm cannot 放下。。。actually"my recovery time" have shortened...compared to few months ago,when i feel stress n depressed..hard to recover...n oways think negatively until think of wanna give up....but nw quite ok...i can "recover"soon...change the sadness...dissapointment to spirit...n never give up...

STPM = stress

Nw start our holiday,but it doesnt sound like holiday for us..becoz need to study hard for our coming stpm.时间很难度过。。除了读书还是读书。。。last trial exam result not satisfying yet...n one of the reason i get low marks mainly coz of careless mistakes!!!!especially math n oso chemistry..i love bio..becoz less calculation..less careless i will do...n math qtion r too...how to say..careless at one part or even put the sign wrongly can make the whole working n answers wrong evendo i knw how to do...imagine how bad is "careless"...reli hurt n sad...n worried..how to avoid careless...the best way is do more qtions..so dat can familiar to it..n will not feel nervous n avoid careless...yaya..shud be like dat...it cannot hapen again...i hate careless!!!!haha,tis holiday need to complete past year qtions n do skor A qtion...n memorise note..duno wat will hapen in this one week holiday..will i be crazy???or fainted??stress...reli stress....study for so many years...this the 1st time i reli feel very very very stress n helpless...n oso...many times wan to give up...but i wnt give up...i knw well..since i enter form 6,stpm hard to get 4 falt to get medic course..coz it not only depend on ur knwledge..but oso need to be smart coz some qtions can be very tricky n got cheated if not careful..n can be careless again...but i shud not think of wat will hapen next n wat had happened be4,i jz need to work hard for tis moment...n never give up...me something like easily become stress n less confidence...dats why cant did very well in exam...i shud have confidence evendo i failed to did well...exam is not a things to make me sad or give up or frustrated..but it rather warn me to work harder n dun be careless again..somesort like motivation....
lastly,this remaining 40+ days,muz work hard n pay whole attention in study...other things shud put aside...everything jz left after exam to settle...but i think ntg to settle...except watch movie,sleeping,online n so on..n hang out wif frens...arrrr....
let us work harder 2geter....time wif teachers in class is so precious,so i wnt play truant....tey give lot of knwledge n oso the time wif all my frens...feel happy n bahagia when together wif frens in class..i我珍惜这一切。。。。。i think jz left few weeks for me to eat mee jawa at canteen,go to toilet without pass frm teacher...sweating waiting my dad under the hot sun infront the dewan wif Stella girl stand beside me sometimes...look innocent thinking why my car havent come yet...all of this wnt be happen again after i leave school

dun be careless bye bye my taiwan movies...(pls wait me)
dun be sad
dun be too stress
dun be frustrated
dun get distracted
dun play again

bye...work hard..harder n harder....harder222222222222222222222222222222...n teddy bear biscuits reli delicious....